Birth is God’s Business

I am currently barefoot and pregnant and loving it.

Children are a gift from God, and I’ve been OVERJOYED with each pregnancy I’ve had. I really enjoy being pregnant, that feeling of being full of life, and birthing my babies naturally at home. I trust God deeply. I love that He invites women to be part of what He’s doing through carrying, birthing, and raising babies.

The way God creates life is such a beautiful mystery to me. As I get older, I continue to sit in total awe at His timing and the work of His hands. He is the most skilled Creator and Master Artist. He creates elaborate, detailed, one-of-a-kind people and places. I will never fully understand, for His ways are not our ways, but I know without a doubt that He is Good. He’s always Good and deserves all the glory, honor, and praise, Amen? Amen!

God has perfect timing.

Like I said, I’m currently pregnant, I’m 43 years old, and this is my fourth pregnancy. When my husband and I got married, eighteen years ago, we said we wanted four kids. We talked about it in our premarital counseling sessions and even drew a picture of us and our future family…four children, two dogs, a yellow house with a pointy roof surrounded by open land.

We currently have two beautiful daughters here on earth, one in Heaven and one in my womb. Praise God! I’ve been a full-time stay-at-home mother since my oldest was born fourteen years ago. We homeschool, try to homestead, adventure often, and enjoy living on the central coast of California. I love lavender plants, homemaking, keeping chickens, our rex rabbit, and our hilarious French bulldog, Nelson.

So why am I sharing all of this? What’s the point? Well, to be honest, this is all to bring God glory. I love Jesus and the Bible, and have seen God’s faithfulness so many times in my own life, I want to share it with others. Also, I was made to talk, and I needed a way to easily share my testimonies and what I see God doing (because He’s doing so much good stuff!). I wanted a space (not social media) where I can praise Jesus without hesitation and encourage other women to go all in for Jesus and their family on this motherhood journey.

I naturally love people and enjoy connecting and sharing life with others. I’ve done the extrovert thing in person and online for many years. I ran my previous business for seven years and hosted classes and retreats for Christian women. I kept up with a vibrant online community and shared A LOT. And while exta-ing is my natural instinct, over the past year and a half, God called me into something different.

The best way to describe it is that I feel like I was benched on the basketball team. I wasn’t called out due to an injury, but every good coach knows when one of their players needs a break. They just know, right?. A year and a half ago, God saw me, He heard my desperate prayers and cry for help, and He lovingly invited me to take a break. He allowed me to pause, catch my breath, and sit down closer to him. What started out as a quick water break turned into a long, much-needed pause.

Sometimes we simply need to stop all the doing and just be. Be still. Be silent. Be near to God. If you’re like me, most mamas “need a minute!” to breathe, and receive the gift of His Rest and Grace. There is nothing more humbling, life-giving, and healing than receiving the Love of God. Most of us are running on fumes and doing so much FOR God that we forget to pause and fill up. When we take the time to be still and know that He is God, and receive His Perfect Love, not because of what we can do to earn it, but simply because we are God’s child, something changes.

I’ve voluntarily been “on the bench” for a year and a half now, and I’m actually enjoying it. God’s way is always the best way! I had no idea that through this pause, God would bring forth the miracle baby I was praying for for the past ten years. I had no idea that on the other side of God calling me totally out of all things yoga and asking me to lay down my Holy Yoga business that I’d cultivated for the past 7 years, He was going to bless me with my deepest desire. I had no idea that on the other side of stepping away from a healthy church community that I LOVED serving in and had so many close friends in, that Jesus would satisfy me and invite me into a friendship with Him like never before.

It’s fun to get a different perspective and observe what’s going on from the sidelines. There’s wisdom in being an apprentice and noticing what’s going on in the game. It’s been a unique journey that’s ultimately taken me inward, towards God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and His Word. It’s been new, quiet, and intimate. It’s brought healing and new life….literally.

I have so much more to share with you, but that’s all for now.

I pray you’re encouraged by something I shared today. I pray that no matter where you are on the journey of motherhood that you would experience the fullness of God’s Grace today. He loves you so much, dear one, not because of what you do, but simply because of who you are…HIS beloved daughter.

Sending you blessings, love, and a deep breath.
Kathryn